The Road

The road ahead is unknown. (picture by aoefe)

I've had terrible news given to me today.  It involves a close family member and it concerns a life-threatening condition and it requires immediate attention.  I don't want to say much because if this blog ever gets outed I don't want their details exposed.  I'm only writing because this outlet is my escape from reality and my catharsis.  I'm in shock and devastated at the same time.  I don't know the prognosis, surgery will tell us more.  It means a person I love will have to relearn how to walk, talk and do things we take for granted.  This person is younger as well as much more fit than I've ever been.  This person is a parent of a young child.  I can't even think straight.  I'm not looking for sympathy although I know many of you will feel it, and I love that about you all.  I'm simply writing as a way to get what's inside out.  We are close this person and I and I have never been more thankful for not having a job than I am right now.

If I resume my regular light hearted postings, please forgive me in advance for being seemingly coldhearted  - it will continue to be my coping strategy if I can bring myself to it.  Please continue to reply to my other posts, I won't mind, in fact I'll enjoy the re-direction of my thoughts.  Thanks guys.

The Road

The road ahead is unknown. (picture by aoefe)

I've had terrible news given to me today.  It involves a close family member and it concerns a life-threatening condition and it requires immediate attention.  I don't want to say much because if this blog ever gets outed I don't want their details exposed.  I'm only writing because this outlet is my escape from reality and my catharsis.  I'm in shock and devastated at the same time.  I don't know the prognosis, surgery will tell us more.  It means a person I love will have to relearn how to walk, talk and do things we take for granted.  This person is younger as well as much more fit than I've ever been.  This person is a parent of a young child.  I can't even think straight.  I'm not looking for sympathy although I know many of you will feel it, and I love that about you all.  I'm simply writing as a way to get what's inside out.  We are close this person and I and I have never been more thankful for not having a job than I am right now.

If I resume my regular light hearted postings, please forgive me in advance for being seemingly coldhearted  - it will continue to be my coping strategy if I can bring myself to it.  Please continue to reply to my other posts, I won't mind, in fact I'll enjoy the re-direction of my thoughts.  Thanks guys.

Reading, Writing and Not Arithmetic !

Have arrived and it was as great as I hoped seeing him.  All nervousness left the building (of my head) once we kissed.  I went for a three hour walk and workout today and feel very relaxed as a result.  He's working during the day which gives me time to explore and work, although I'm somewhat heavier on the explore part.  Found a great used bookstore and plan to read, write and #$%# my way through the next few days.  Life is grand!

Path was taken during a hike today - so lovely. Sigh...

Reading, Writing and Not Arithmetic !

Have arrived and it was as great as I hoped seeing him.  All nervousness left the building (of my head) once we kissed.  I went for a three hour walk and workout today and feel very relaxed as a result.  He's working during the day which gives me time to explore and work, although I'm somewhat heavier on the explore part.  Found a great used bookstore and plan to read, write and #$%# my way through the next few days.  Life is grand!

Path was taken during a hike today - so lovely. Sigh...

Driving Force

I'm leaving in a couple of hours to spend a few days with moi homme, Frenchi.  I'm nervous, it's been a little over a month.  You know the butterfly feelings you get when you're nervous? Yeah, that's what I'm feeling - anticipation.

I don't like long distance relationships and was reluctant to begin this one, but after over 8 months of waiting he's going to be moving much, much closer.  He may be moving in with me in fact, we haven't figured that out yet, neither of us wants to screw things up.  We know we have a good thing going connection wise and too much too soon may mess with it. We shall see, there will be lots to talk about when I'm with him this week.

I plan on blogging while I'm away, and if I find I'm not able to concentrate on writing I'm going to dig up some old posts, either here or on Girl Game and repost.

Have a great week peeps, I'm going to!!

Driving Force

I'm leaving in a couple of hours to spend a few days with moi homme, Frenchi.  I'm nervous, it's been a little over a month.  You know the butterfly feelings you get when you're nervous? Yeah, that's what I'm feeling - anticipation.

I don't like long distance relationships and was reluctant to begin this one, but after over 8 months of waiting he's going to be moving much, much closer.  He may be moving in with me in fact, we haven't figured that out yet, neither of us wants to screw things up.  We know we have a good thing going connection wise and too much too soon may mess with it. We shall see, there will be lots to talk about when I'm with him this week.

I plan on blogging while I'm away, and if I find I'm not able to concentrate on writing I'm going to dig up some old posts, either here or on Girl Game and repost.

Have a great week peeps, I'm going to!!

Thanks blogger friends!

A shout out to other blogs who link me or send traffic my way.   Thanks!

I've updated my link list, there were some defunct ones like Roissy and I've updated their links.  Some have gone the way of the dodo bird, like Lil Girl, but some have recently revived like Clio's.  Rebekah is a lovely, sweet girl, not sure if you're visited her yet.   You'll find my link list on the side bar.

Bhetti, Sofia, Heartiste, In Mala Fide, Racer X, Paul the King, Pro Male have all directed traffic my way recently and I'm thankful!

I'm interested in exchanging links, so feel free to comment here and I'll make sure I add you.

Thanks blogger friends!

A shout out to other blogs who link me or send traffic my way.   Thanks!

I've updated my link list, there were some defunct ones like Roissy and I've updated their links.  Some have gone the way of the dodo bird, like Lil Girl, but some have recently revived like Clio's.  Rebekah is a lovely, sweet girl, not sure if you're visited her yet.   You'll find my link list on the side bar.

Bhetti, Sofia, Heartiste, In Mala Fide, Racer X, Paul the King, Pro Male have all directed traffic my way recently and I'm thankful!

I'm interested in exchanging links, so feel free to comment here and I'll make sure I add you.

Parade of Life

I'm enjoying my summer as I've posted before, only this morning I went to a parade with an adult friend.  It's kind of weird being the only adults present without children, but it also felt pretty cool.  We're young at heart and enjoyed every pipe band and clown that passed by dammit.

Right now I sit in my bedroom surrounded by the sounds of sirens, pretty sure that a huge booming thunderstorm which just passed has hit something.  Just two days ago a home close to mine was hit by lightening.  We're living under a dome of heat which is creating a fair amount of instability.

I have a pretty big meeting planned with a CEO who claims he wants to get me going in my business, he's very influential and I'm crossing my fingers that moula will soon be coming to my pocket.  I'm frugaler (sp) than I'd like.  No mani/pedi's for me right now.

I was planning on doing a whole bunch of stairs in my river valley, however the pouring rain has made me into a baby and I'm afraid I may melt, the gym it will be.
The few extra pounds I'm carrying is coming off, I can feel it and so will he when he finally returns!

Parade of Life

I'm enjoying my summer as I've posted before, only this morning I went to a parade with an adult friend.  It's kind of weird being the only adults present without children, but it also felt pretty cool.  We're young at heart and enjoyed every pipe band and clown that passed by dammit.

Right now I sit in my bedroom surrounded by the sounds of sirens, pretty sure that a huge booming thunderstorm which just passed has hit something.  Just two days ago a home close to mine was hit by lightening.  We're living under a dome of heat which is creating a fair amount of instability.

I have a pretty big meeting planned with a CEO who claims he wants to get me going in my business, he's very influential and I'm crossing my fingers that moula will soon be coming to my pocket.  I'm frugaler (sp) than I'd like.  No mani/pedi's for me right now.

I was planning on doing a whole bunch of stairs in my river valley, however the pouring rain has made me into a baby and I'm afraid I may melt, the gym it will be.
The few extra pounds I'm carrying is coming off, I can feel it and so will he when he finally returns!

Euphoric day

I'm feeling really good today.    Don't you love the feeling of euphoria? I can't exactly explain why I have it because if you examine my current situation it doesn't look that great especially financially.  My six week contract ends next week and I'm out of work.  I have some irons in the fire and I'm pretty confident they'll work out but there is nothing signed or sealed.  I have some money set aside, but nothing that'll carry me for months and months.  Yet...I'm still highly confident my business will be going strong by year end.  I remain terribly excited.

I am leaving my long term employer and although on the surface we are behaving very kindly and professionally, truthfully I'm disgruntled about how it all went down.  I don't want to burn any bridges and no good will come of a frank discussion because nothing will change.  I have attempted it in the months since work blew up, but haven't been successful.  Being bitter won't move me forward, so I won't spend anymore time talking about my dissatisfaction, besides I'm really happy right now.

My love life is going super well.  He's out of Province right now so I miss him, but I'll take missing someone I care about that being alone with no one to miss any day.  We haven't moved in yet, no date on when that'll happen, we have some logistics we're working on.  I love being loved, it's been a long time for me.  I was really wondering if I was too choosy or if I was too caught up in the pursuit and was being too much the writer, looking for the story etc.  But...when I look at all the men I've met and the few I had relationships with, it was preparation for this man. I was ready for him, and he for me.  Besides the chemistry we have we're well suited to each others temperaments and both are sweetly protective of the relationship.

I'm putting my whole face here because some think I hate my nose enough to chop it out of pictures. Honestly it's not terrible, I chop myself up to make myself anonymous.  So guess I blow that here huh. 

Euphoric day

I'm feeling really good today.    Don't you love the feeling of euphoria? I can't exactly explain why I have it because if you examine my current situation it doesn't look that great especially financially.  My six week contract ends next week and I'm out of work.  I have some irons in the fire and I'm pretty confident they'll work out but there is nothing signed or sealed.  I have some money set aside, but nothing that'll carry me for months and months.  Yet...I'm still highly confident my business will be going strong by year end.  I remain terribly excited.

I am leaving my long term employer and although on the surface we are behaving very kindly and professionally, truthfully I'm disgruntled about how it all went down.  I don't want to burn any bridges and no good will come of a frank discussion because nothing will change.  I have attempted it in the months since work blew up, but haven't been successful.  Being bitter won't move me forward, so I won't spend anymore time talking about my dissatisfaction, besides I'm really happy right now.

My love life is going super well.  He's out of Province right now so I miss him, but I'll take missing someone I care about that being alone with no one to miss any day.  We haven't moved in yet, no date on when that'll happen, we have some logistics we're working on.  I love being loved, it's been a long time for me.  I was really wondering if I was too choosy or if I was too caught up in the pursuit and was being too much the writer, looking for the story etc.  But...when I look at all the men I've met and the few I had relationships with, it was preparation for this man. I was ready for him, and he for me.  Besides the chemistry we have we're well suited to each others temperaments and both are sweetly protective of the relationship.

I'm putting my whole face here because some think I hate my nose enough to chop it out of pictures. Honestly it's not terrible, I chop myself up to make myself anonymous.  So guess I blow that here huh. 

Don't bug me!

I arrived back in Canada last night ladies and gentleman.  I had a wonderful mini holiday in spite of the fact I was officially diagnosed with a parasite two days before I left.  The medication required to kill the buggers (literally) was a concoction that would make it impossible to drink alcohol without making me violently ill.  That wouldn't be so bad I suppose if my lil ole' trip hadn't been to Vegas!  Mind you I can say what I did in Vegas because I didn't forget it.  hee hee

I went to the Billboard Awards.  Which.  Were.  Amazing!  I was on the floor and got moved up to sit closer because I think I looked fancy enough.  I'm sure it helped that I had my make-up professional applied.  I don't need a chef I need a make-up artist.  Oh yea baby.

Closer and a half shot, that's more like it.  

Best performance of the night was Beyonce but gotta admit it was  thrill to see Britney Spears so close.  There was such a buzz in the audience when she came out on stage with Rhianna.  The 360 turn Cee-lo Green's piano did was tres cool too.  I stood right next to Evander Holyfield and was only five people away from Keith Urban.  Why oh why didn't he see me and dump Nicole Kidman?

All in all I feel amazing.  My little critters have been attacked by antibiotics and I have an appetite again which is both a good AND bad thing.  My boyfriend and my business are glad to have me back.  I'm glad to be back too.

I'll leave you with Beyonce's video which I saw LIVE!!!

Don't bug me!

I arrived back in Canada last night ladies and gentleman.  I had a wonderful mini holiday in spite of the fact I was officially diagnosed with a parasite two days before I left.  The medication required to kill the buggers (literally) was a concoction that would make it impossible to drink alcohol without making me violently ill.  That wouldn't be so bad I suppose if my lil ole' trip hadn't been to Vegas!  Mind you I can say what I did in Vegas because I didn't forget it.  hee hee

I went to the Billboard Awards.  Which.  Were.  Amazing!  I was on the floor and got moved up to sit closer because I think I looked fancy enough.  I'm sure it helped that I had my make-up professional applied.  I don't need a chef I need a make-up artist.  Oh yea baby.

Closer and a half shot, that's more like it.  

Best performance of the night was Beyonce but gotta admit it was  thrill to see Britney Spears so close.  There was such a buzz in the audience when she came out on stage with Rhianna.  The 360 turn Cee-lo Green's piano did was tres cool too.  I stood right next to Evander Holyfield and was only five people away from Keith Urban.  Why oh why didn't he see me and dump Nicole Kidman?

All in all I feel amazing.  My little critters have been attacked by antibiotics and I have an appetite again which is both a good AND bad thing.  My boyfriend and my business are glad to have me back.  I'm glad to be back too.

I'll leave you with Beyonce's video which I saw LIVE!!!

Got topped up again.

I've been in hospital once again but this time I think I'm good to go.  A brutal flu took hold and required copious amounts of fluid to keep me functioning.

I've got bruises and sticky glue marks from the tape, my hands and arms are wrecks from where they tried to get veins.  I can brag that I have tiny veins can't I?  haha.

Yesterday was the first day I felt normal and today continued the trend.  Woot!  I'm off for a little trip to the US on Saturday with a girl friend and it's going to require some energy to shop and not have me drop.

I anticipate a return to 'normal' blogging once I'm back.

Good news on the new company I have two amazing leads and hope to see them translate to real business soon.  Life is pretty good!

Got topped up again.

I've been in hospital once again but this time I think I'm good to go.  A brutal flu took hold and required copious amounts of fluid to keep me functioning.

I've got bruises and sticky glue marks from the tape, my hands and arms are wrecks from where they tried to get veins.  I can brag that I have tiny veins can't I?  haha.

Yesterday was the first day I felt normal and today continued the trend.  Woot!  I'm off for a little trip to the US on Saturday with a girl friend and it's going to require some energy to shop and not have me drop.

I anticipate a return to 'normal' blogging once I'm back.

Good news on the new company I have two amazing leads and hope to see them translate to real business soon.  Life is pretty good!

Failure to plan is a plan to fail...so I'm going to be rich!

I had my last full time day at my job yesterday.   My workload was drastically reduced once the new guy took on major portions of my role and I suddenly had weekends and evening free of work related texts and phone calls. My work week on average was 60+ and most of it in the high stress range of activities - constant need for critical thinking and crisis response.  The sudden drop into normalcy was surreal in some ways.  It was easier than I though it would be, perhaps because I have a vision for my future there was very little to cling to there.

I've been contracted for the next six weeks by the same company to work two days per week, this money will assist me while I get my own company off the ground.  Speaking of my company I've been given an exclusive opportunity to be the sole contractor for a pilot project doing gap analysis for agencies throughout Alberta.  It's a coup because it opens the door wide to getting contracts based on recommendations from the reports I'll do.  The opportunity comes from an organization who is extremely well positioned in the sector I'm in.  I have a stellar reputation with this firm and it's paying off now.  I can't tell you how fantastic this is!

I have yet to finish my home office, my plan is to get it finished by Friday.  Today I'm going to work out a plan for what I want to get done for May.  I haven't formalized a strategic plan yet and want to do that so I can measure progress and set some benchmarks.  I have worked for others my whole life and have watched poor planning result in poor results.  A favourite workplace saying of mine, "failure to plan is a plan to fail."

I also plan to introduce fun to my life.  I'm not even sure what fun looks like anymore.  I do laugh, but have no fun hobbies or extra curricular stuff going on to augment the chuckles.  I will also make sure I go to the gym three days a week to reestablish weight training.  I'm starting to get fat again and that's a terrible place to be in my head, let alone my clothes.  In fact today is the start of a juice fast to clean out toxic sludge - both body and mental ick.  I will be taking a mini-vacay with a girlfriend at the end of the month and hitting boutiques which means I need to lose 10 in 21.  Fasting combined with Paleo will get me there.

Well gotta run and get to the meat and potatoes of life, okay maybe I'll leave off the potatoes.

Failure to plan is a plan to fail...so I'm going to be rich!

I had my last full time day at my job yesterday.   My workload was drastically reduced once the new guy took on major portions of my role and I suddenly had weekends and evening free of work related texts and phone calls. My work week on average was 60+ and most of it in the high stress range of activities - constant need for critical thinking and crisis response.  The sudden drop into normalcy was surreal in some ways.  It was easier than I though it would be, perhaps because I have a vision for my future there was very little to cling to there.

I've been contracted for the next six weeks by the same company to work two days per week, this money will assist me while I get my own company off the ground.  Speaking of my company I've been given an exclusive opportunity to be the sole contractor for a pilot project doing gap analysis for agencies throughout Alberta.  It's a coup because it opens the door wide to getting contracts based on recommendations from the reports I'll do.  The opportunity comes from an organization who is extremely well positioned in the sector I'm in.  I have a stellar reputation with this firm and it's paying off now.  I can't tell you how fantastic this is!

I have yet to finish my home office, my plan is to get it finished by Friday.  Today I'm going to work out a plan for what I want to get done for May.  I haven't formalized a strategic plan yet and want to do that so I can measure progress and set some benchmarks.  I have worked for others my whole life and have watched poor planning result in poor results.  A favourite workplace saying of mine, "failure to plan is a plan to fail."

I also plan to introduce fun to my life.  I'm not even sure what fun looks like anymore.  I do laugh, but have no fun hobbies or extra curricular stuff going on to augment the chuckles.  I will also make sure I go to the gym three days a week to reestablish weight training.  I'm starting to get fat again and that's a terrible place to be in my head, let alone my clothes.  In fact today is the start of a juice fast to clean out toxic sludge - both body and mental ick.  I will be taking a mini-vacay with a girlfriend at the end of the month and hitting boutiques which means I need to lose 10 in 21.  Fasting combined with Paleo will get me there.

Well gotta run and get to the meat and potatoes of life, okay maybe I'll leave off the potatoes.

Update my mini masses

Definition of insanity?  I just know it has my name beside it.  Just sayin'.

Work: Shitty

Love life: Hot  - back with my boyfriend.  Long story and can't go into it yet, but I think we're going to take a big step and MOVE in together.  Wowza.  That's big for me people!  Sex is amazing off the hook and he's really pretty cool and he...wait for it...intrigues me. 

I'll be leaving work mid April to work on my company full time.  I can't wait.  I'm terrified but it's long overdue and I think I'm going to make it!  My plan is to resume blogging again - I've missed all of you muchly.

Update my mini masses

Definition of insanity?  I just know it has my name beside it.  Just sayin'.

Work: Shitty

Love life: Hot  - back with my boyfriend.  Long story and can't go into it yet, but I think we're going to take a big step and MOVE in together.  Wowza.  That's big for me people!  Sex is amazing off the hook and he's really pretty cool and he...wait for it...intrigues me. 

I'll be leaving work mid April to work on my company full time.  I can't wait.  I'm terrified but it's long overdue and I think I'm going to make it!  My plan is to resume blogging again - I've missed all of you muchly.