I promised a post on the Wiener. Now keep in mind I'm not a political pundit, just a Canadian and female observer. I have followed the story like most, on the net and in the news. I had no idea who he was prior to the scandal. I had no idea who his wife was prior to the scandal. I have no idea which side of the house he sits on, I say this because I have no political motivation in writing about it. I'm interested only as a person curious about human behaviour.
1. I think he's got some brain function challenges. 2. The net meaning blogging, vlogging, twitter and Facebook etc etc have opened the door to public stupidness instead of just plain stupid that got discovered by your immediate family. 3. His defence has backfired.
1.
A guy who enters into high risk behaviour like his and has much to lose has to have some issues with his brain function. I don't mean as in stupid, I mean as in how his brain fires. He needs to stimulate his brain in order for him to feel 'normal' and by engaging in this behaviour he does. He may have adult attention deficit disorder. A brain like that while resting actually fires less than an average brain, creating drama, risk, challenge makes his brain fire more and work better. He's a highly intelligent man, his behaviour is not about smarts, it's about neurones.
2.
I'm a blogger and I have walked the line of stupidity and discovery a few times. I have much less to lose than a man who may run for Mayor of New York or higher, but I still have a bit of risk. Wiener accidentally sent a titillating (cockilating) picture to his public instead of an individual. I can't imagine what he felt like when he realized his error. His whole body must have gone into shock and accompanying nausea. That's the danger of the www, it's too easy to do the wrong thing. I have a persona and a real life. If I uploaded one of my half naked shots to my 'real' Facebook where family, co-workers and friends visit, I can't even imagine how awful it would be. Not showing my face and/or other body parts for a few years occurs to me. He didn't have that option and went into damage control. Hacking was the reason. He didn't deny the shots were his. Most say because they were too darn flattering. The excuse fell flat because he had sent them to too many women and at least one was looking to cash in. So he confessed...
3.
The confession with tears. Dumb. Do. Not. Feel. Shame. Do a Letterman. Do a boys will be boys scenario. Be a man. Own it and say "I should take a How to Twitter lesson". Now he says he's entering into therapy. For what? Doing what most men do anyway? How big would that class be? Now if he's going to check his brain function and discover why he engages in high risk behaviour that's another thing. Cuz seriously...you took a picture of your face with a piece of paper that said "me" on it and sent it to a woman when she couldn't believe you said who you said you were! Be cockrock69 but don't fricken show your face man. Sex-text to the high heavens, but don't use an address that can be linked to the real you. I believe your wife knows you and even accepts you...but she didn't think you'd be that dumb, she didn't think you'd take your little fun to her real world life. Her friend Hillary must be giving her some good advice right now, I can just imagine how that goes, "Well I forgave Bill and he actually came on that girl, so cock pics aren't really that bad."
Wiener is going to be out sooner than he'd like. It's beyond his control, and for that man, it must really suck. Wiener if you're reading this my handle is NeedWienerBad. *wink
For a picture of a real member of congress click here - NSFW Not bad.
I promised a post on the Wiener. Now keep in mind I'm not a political pundit, just a Canadian and female observer. I have followed the story like most, on the net and in the news. I had no idea who he was prior to the scandal. I had no idea who his wife was prior to the scandal. I have no idea which side of the house he sits on, I say this because I have no political motivation in writing about it. I'm interested only as a person curious about human behaviour.
1. I think he's got some brain function challenges. 2. The net meaning blogging, vlogging, twitter and Facebook etc etc have opened the door to public stupidness instead of just plain stupid that got discovered by your immediate family. 3. His defence has backfired.
1.
A guy who enters into high risk behaviour like his and has much to lose has to have some issues with his brain function. I don't mean as in stupid, I mean as in how his brain fires. He needs to stimulate his brain in order for him to feel 'normal' and by engaging in this behaviour he does. He may have adult attention deficit disorder. A brain like that while resting actually fires less than an average brain, creating drama, risk, challenge makes his brain fire more and work better. He's a highly intelligent man, his behaviour is not about smarts, it's about neurones.
2.
I'm a blogger and I have walked the line of stupidity and discovery a few times. I have much less to lose than a man who may run for Mayor of New York or higher, but I still have a bit of risk. Wiener accidentally sent a titillating (cockilating) picture to his public instead of an individual. I can't imagine what he felt like when he realized his error. His whole body must have gone into shock and accompanying nausea. That's the danger of the www, it's too easy to do the wrong thing. I have a persona and a real life. If I uploaded one of my half naked shots to my 'real' Facebook where family, co-workers and friends visit, I can't even imagine how awful it would be. Not showing my face and/or other body parts for a few years occurs to me. He didn't have that option and went into damage control. Hacking was the reason. He didn't deny the shots were his. Most say because they were too darn flattering. The excuse fell flat because he had sent them to too many women and at least one was looking to cash in. So he confessed...
3.
The confession with tears. Dumb. Do. Not. Feel. Shame. Do a Letterman. Do a boys will be boys scenario. Be a man. Own it and say "I should take a How to Twitter lesson". Now he says he's entering into therapy. For what? Doing what most men do anyway? How big would that class be? Now if he's going to check his brain function and discover why he engages in high risk behaviour that's another thing. Cuz seriously...you took a picture of your face with a piece of paper that said "me" on it and sent it to a woman when she couldn't believe you said who you said you were! Be cockrock69 but don't fricken show your face man. Sex-text to the high heavens, but don't use an address that can be linked to the real you. I believe your wife knows you and even accepts you...but she didn't think you'd be that dumb, she didn't think you'd take your little fun to her real world life. Her friend Hillary must be giving her some good advice right now, I can just imagine how that goes, "Well I forgave Bill and he actually came on that girl, so cock pics aren't really that bad."
Wiener is going to be out sooner than he'd like. It's beyond his control, and for that man, it must really suck. Wiener if you're reading this my handle is NeedWienerBad. *wink
For a picture of a real member of congress click here - NSFW Not bad.
I feel like I'll be stranger in a strange land when I enter my work doors tomorrow. I've spent countless hours getting ready to launch my own company so I feel incredibly distanced from what I do. I never call in sick but am seriously debating it for tomorrow. I know I won't but I really (really) want to.
I plan to launch officially at the end of the month and I can't believe how much I've accomplished in such a short time. My vision allows for my agency to grow and I've already had three people who I believe are valuable say they'd leave their current work places to be with me. I'm terribly picky about who'd I'd take, I've seen what happens to organizations with the wrong people on the team. My mission statement already incorporates the idea of a group of experts, why think small?
I have the passion, drive and ability to do this extremely well. I feel like everything in my life has led me to now. The support I'm receiving from those around me is fantastic. I don't need financial backing, but if I needed it, they'd be willing because they've caught the vision. I can't tell you how cool it is.
An ex boyfriend contacted me today. He broke my heart this past summer with a sudden cooling and although I've had relationships since I do go over what happened from time to time. Five hours of texting and three phone calls later and we have a lunch date for tomorrow. He claims I freaked him out and he didn't think he would be good enough for me sexually. Hmmmm I really have to think about the vibe I give off. Last dude wanted me in a threesome. I think I may exude more raw sexuality than I thought. I'm seeing someone and I was upfront about it with him. I'm kinda liking I'm involved, gives me more power. For the record I wouldn't cheat in case some of you know it alls are assuming the worst. I'm an honourable woman. I'm meeting him during my work day at a local public restaurant and giving him a cheque for the trailer he left in my driveway. I want it - it's handy.
I will post some of our text exchange at a later date and time. It's kinda cool how I was able to hold my power frame, it was kind of predictable game wise what he started doing in response. I had him at "my boyfriend thanks you for dumping me" after he finished telling me I was the best sex he's ever had.
I feel like I'll be stranger in a strange land when I enter my work doors tomorrow. I've spent countless hours getting ready to launch my own company so I feel incredibly distanced from what I do. I never call in sick but am seriously debating it for tomorrow. I know I won't but I really (really) want to.
I plan to launch officially at the end of the month and I can't believe how much I've accomplished in such a short time. My vision allows for my agency to grow and I've already had three people who I believe are valuable say they'd leave their current work places to be with me. I'm terribly picky about who'd I'd take, I've seen what happens to organizations with the wrong people on the team. My mission statement already incorporates the idea of a group of experts, why think small?
I have the passion, drive and ability to do this extremely well. I feel like everything in my life has led me to now. The support I'm receiving from those around me is fantastic. I don't need financial backing, but if I needed it, they'd be willing because they've caught the vision. I can't tell you how cool it is.
An ex boyfriend contacted me today. He broke my heart this past summer with a sudden cooling and although I've had relationships since I do go over what happened from time to time. Five hours of texting and three phone calls later and we have a lunch date for tomorrow. He claims I freaked him out and he didn't think he would be good enough for me sexually. Hmmmm I really have to think about the vibe I give off. Last dude wanted me in a threesome. I think I may exude more raw sexuality than I thought. I'm seeing someone and I was upfront about it with him. I'm kinda liking I'm involved, gives me more power. For the record I wouldn't cheat in case some of you know it alls are assuming the worst. I'm an honourable woman. I'm meeting him during my work day at a local public restaurant and giving him a cheque for the trailer he left in my driveway. I want it - it's handy.
I will post some of our text exchange at a later date and time. It's kinda cool how I was able to hold my power frame, it was kind of predictable game wise what he started doing in response. I had him at "my boyfriend thanks you for dumping me" after he finished telling me I was the best sex he's ever had.
I've had an obsession the last week or two. My girl friend got me hooked, I'll blame her.
Canadians are well aware of the man I'm going to mention, pretty sure a few Americans will have as well. I'm not sure how well known he is overseas.
Russell Williams.
Former Colonel and commanding officer of CFB Trenton, the largest air force base in Canada. I grew up on military bases. My dad like the man I'm going to talk about was also a pilot. That's where the similarity stops.
Russell Williams recently plead guilty to over 80 criminal charges and has been sentenced to life in prison with no hope of parole for 25 years. When his parole hearing comes up he'll be in his 70's and even then he'll be denied.
Russell Williams from all appearances didn't begin his criminal life until the age of 44 which is highly unusual. The fact that he started by breaking into houses and put on women and children's underwear then masturbated on beds and in dresser drawers is even more unusual. He stole lingerie in large quantities and photographed his take, much like someone would to sell it on EBay. He took thousands of pictures and he was in many of them.
He concentrated his time in young girls bedrooms and would often return to the same home over and over again. In one break in he wrote "merci" in a young girls computer, thanking her I suppose for the underwear he stole from her. Of over 40 break-ins only 17 were reported to police. It wasn't until the evidence was gathered that they told unknowing home owners of the crimes.
His behavior escalated rapidly and the progression of photographic evidence, his length of time spent in the homes and what he did there points to his need for more and more thrill. In one home he wiped a young woman's make-up brush with his penis and put it back on her make-up table.
Eventually he upped the thrill by sexually assaulting two women, both in his neighborhood. He tied them up, cut off their clothes and took pictures. Each assault which did not include penetration lasted around 2.5 hours.
A forensic psychiatrist reports that he was messy in his escalation and it points to compulsion that was driving him to take more and more risks to satiate his desires.
Corporal Marie Francis Comeau was a flight attendant for the Canadian Military and was stationed in Trenton where Williams was base commander. He only flew with her once but she got his attention. He was able to find out where she lived and discovered she lived alone. He was able to access her flight schedule and while away on a trip he entered her house to look around. The night she was to return he entered her basement. His plan was for her to fall asleep before he assaulted her. Instead unable to find one of her cats she entered the basement. The cat was there its eyes fixated on Williams. When she saw him she is reported to have yelled "you bastard" before he rushed her. He was masked and Marie Francis never knew her commanding officer had entered her home. He tied her to a pole in the basement and recorded her on video. He untied her at some point to take her upstairs and she fought. He knocked her unconscious and recorded her in this state on the stairs leading up. He took her to her bedroom where he continued a sadistic sexual assault. She fought hard and when he felt it was time to end it by strangling her, he was unable to complete it due to her struggle. He ended up putting duct tape on her nose and mouth and recorded her dying breaths on video. After her death he took still photos of her sitting on the floor before finally placing her on her bed and wrapping her in her duvet. That was November 2009.
January 2010. Jessica Lloyd, 27, is discovered missing by her family. A massive search begins. Two neighbors in the area report to police they saw an SUV off the side of the road the night before she was discovered missing. They take tire impressions. They take boot impressions from the back yard. A road block is set up and vehicles are screened for tire impressions as they go through. Williams has tires that match. Unbeknownst to him he is now under surveillance. They watch him detail his vehicle and take the contents of the vacuum to forensics. They are building the case. It will come to light that she was kept alive for almost 24 hours and he'd transferred to his house alive to continue the assualts. He recorded her having seizures, maby brought on by extreme stess and her begging to be brought to the hospistal, it is said the video camera didnt waver.
On February 7, 2010 Russell Williams is brought in for questioning. What is maybe the most fascinating and disturbing footage I've ever watched records a confident man who becomes anxious and then becomes resigned just prior to confessing. They say a smart man is outsmarted by a smarter man in this interview. I'm not sure he's outsmarted, I believe he's smart enough to know when he's been caught. His impulses led him to commit terrible acts and they were impulses that made him lose sight of being cautious. He entered the interview wearing the same footwear he'd worn the day of Jessica Lloyds disappearance. When shown the matched footprints you can almost feel Williams defeat. It takes an hour or two longer of long pauses and silence before Williams looks up and says "Get a map" in order to show his interrogator where Jessica's body is.
The interrogator, an OPP behavioral specialist named Smyth , is brilliant in his questioning techniques. He is able to get a confession while still reminding Williams he can ask for a lawyer at any time. Williams never does. He willingly gives up DNA and boot impressions. You have to ask yourself if either Williams thought he was too 'big' to get caught, a God complex, or if he was was hoping to be. When asked at the end of the interview what he was feeling he simply replied, "disappointed". I want to know what the disappointment meant, was it disappointment at being caught or at having fallen prey to his own dangerous desires? We may never know.
He is a fascinating case to everyone in the mental health field. He doesn't fit the role of psychopathy perfectly. He confessed he said because he didn't want to bring extra burden to his wife of 18 years, an apparent loving gesture. He was concerned as well that they were tearing apart her brand new house which he explained had been a dream of hers. In that home he was able to tell them where the video and photographic evidence was hidden. It is surprising to note that there were bags and boxes of lingerie both in a spare bedroom and the basement and she had never looked in it. Amazingly uncurious. Some report that military men often have secret things their wives are not to look in as part of security in the forces. Maybe at the top levels, but as a military brat I can say honestly my dad didn't store things in our house that we couldn't access. His wife has only one quote that can be found as she has steadfastly refused to speak with the press. She says, "I miss the man I knew, I hate the man who took him away."
Williams attempted suicide in April of this year by shoving a toilet paper roll down his throat and after that unsuccessful attempt he tried to starve himself to death. It is highly unusual for psychopaths to take their own lives which again leads us to believe he's an anomaly. He cried after sentencing saying he was terribly sorry for the acts he'd committed, he recognized verbally his apology wouldn't be acceptable.
I have mixed feelings about this man. His acts are horrendous and monstrous yet his confession tape surprisingly brings up feelings of empathy for him. It's like I am too easily able to separate his distress from his actions and I end up feeling for his distress. Yet, he did not have any empathy for any of his victims. I suppose it's my inability to understand lack of empathy that makes it difficult.
I do know that this mini obsession has literally given me at least one sleepless night. Knowing how easy it is to break into homes and knowing this man specifically targeted attractive women living alone makes me nervous. Just this past week I locked my bedroom door in addition to my entry doors, I've never done that. The act of locking of the bedroom door caused me to become hyper vigilant and I became convinced I heard footsteps in my home. My dogs began barking which is very unusual. I literally sat in my bed in an rigid position holding my phone, ready to dial 911 for at least an hour. I slept with the light on and dreamt terrible dreams. In the morning convinced my animals were dead I wielded a metal pant hanger over my head as I unlocked my bedroom door. My single status which I've lived comfortably with for years suddenly seemed dangerous.
I've attached pictures and video if I've happened to pique your interest.
Click here to watch a commercial free special edition of the Fifth Estate's view of the confession. The Confession - the fifth estate
I've had an obsession the last week or two. My girl friend got me hooked, I'll blame her.
Canadians are well aware of the man I'm going to mention, pretty sure a few Americans will have as well. I'm not sure how well known he is overseas.
Russell Williams.
Former Colonel and commanding officer of CFB Trenton, the largest air force base in Canada. I grew up on military bases. My dad like the man I'm going to talk about was also a pilot. That's where the similarity stops.
Russell Williams recently plead guilty to over 80 criminal charges and has been sentenced to life in prison with no hope of parole for 25 years. When his parole hearing comes up he'll be in his 70's and even then he'll be denied.
Russell Williams from all appearances didn't begin his criminal life until the age of 44 which is highly unusual. The fact that he started by breaking into houses and put on women and children's underwear then masturbated on beds and in dresser drawers is even more unusual. He stole lingerie in large quantities and photographed his take, much like someone would to sell it on EBay. He took thousands of pictures and he was in many of them.
He concentrated his time in young girls bedrooms and would often return to the same home over and over again. In one break in he wrote "merci" in a young girls computer, thanking her I suppose for the underwear he stole from her. Of over 40 break-ins only 17 were reported to police. It wasn't until the evidence was gathered that they told unknowing home owners of the crimes.
His behavior escalated rapidly and the progression of photographic evidence, his length of time spent in the homes and what he did there points to his need for more and more thrill. In one home he wiped a young woman's make-up brush with his penis and put it back on her make-up table.
Eventually he upped the thrill by sexually assaulting two women, both in his neighborhood. He tied them up, cut off their clothes and took pictures. Each assault which did not include penetration lasted around 2.5 hours.
A forensic psychiatrist reports that he was messy in his escalation and it points to compulsion that was driving him to take more and more risks to satiate his desires.
Corporal Marie Francis Comeau was a flight attendant for the Canadian Military and was stationed in Trenton where Williams was base commander. He only flew with her once but she got his attention. He was able to find out where she lived and discovered she lived alone. He was able to access her flight schedule and while away on a trip he entered her house to look around. The night she was to return he entered her basement. His plan was for her to fall asleep before he assaulted her. Instead unable to find one of her cats she entered the basement. The cat was there its eyes fixated on Williams. When she saw him she is reported to have yelled "you bastard" before he rushed her. He was masked and Marie Francis never knew her commanding officer had entered her home. He tied her to a pole in the basement and recorded her on video. He untied her at some point to take her upstairs and she fought. He knocked her unconscious and recorded her in this state on the stairs leading up. He took her to her bedroom where he continued a sadistic sexual assault. She fought hard and when he felt it was time to end it by strangling her, he was unable to complete it due to her struggle. He ended up putting duct tape on her nose and mouth and recorded her dying breaths on video. After her death he took still photos of her sitting on the floor before finally placing her on her bed and wrapping her in her duvet. That was November 2009.
January 2010. Jessica Lloyd, 27, is discovered missing by her family. A massive search begins. Two neighbors in the area report to police they saw an SUV off the side of the road the night before she was discovered missing. They take tire impressions. They take boot impressions from the back yard. A road block is set up and vehicles are screened for tire impressions as they go through. Williams has tires that match. Unbeknownst to him he is now under surveillance. They watch him detail his vehicle and take the contents of the vacuum to forensics. They are building the case. It will come to light that she was kept alive for almost 24 hours and he'd transferred to his house alive to continue the assualts. He recorded her having seizures, maby brought on by extreme stess and her begging to be brought to the hospistal, it is said the video camera didnt waver.
On February 7, 2010 Russell Williams is brought in for questioning. What is maybe the most fascinating and disturbing footage I've ever watched records a confident man who becomes anxious and then becomes resigned just prior to confessing. They say a smart man is outsmarted by a smarter man in this interview. I'm not sure he's outsmarted, I believe he's smart enough to know when he's been caught. His impulses led him to commit terrible acts and they were impulses that made him lose sight of being cautious. He entered the interview wearing the same footwear he'd worn the day of Jessica Lloyds disappearance. When shown the matched footprints you can almost feel Williams defeat. It takes an hour or two longer of long pauses and silence before Williams looks up and says "Get a map" in order to show his interrogator where Jessica's body is.
The interrogator, an OPP behavioral specialist named Smyth , is brilliant in his questioning techniques. He is able to get a confession while still reminding Williams he can ask for a lawyer at any time. Williams never does. He willingly gives up DNA and boot impressions. You have to ask yourself if either Williams thought he was too 'big' to get caught, a God complex, or if he was was hoping to be. When asked at the end of the interview what he was feeling he simply replied, "disappointed". I want to know what the disappointment meant, was it disappointment at being caught or at having fallen prey to his own dangerous desires? We may never know.
He is a fascinating case to everyone in the mental health field. He doesn't fit the role of psychopathy perfectly. He confessed he said because he didn't want to bring extra burden to his wife of 18 years, an apparent loving gesture. He was concerned as well that they were tearing apart her brand new house which he explained had been a dream of hers. In that home he was able to tell them where the video and photographic evidence was hidden. It is surprising to note that there were bags and boxes of lingerie both in a spare bedroom and the basement and she had never looked in it. Amazingly uncurious. Some report that military men often have secret things their wives are not to look in as part of security in the forces. Maybe at the top levels, but as a military brat I can say honestly my dad didn't store things in our house that we couldn't access. His wife has only one quote that can be found as she has steadfastly refused to speak with the press. She says, "I miss the man I knew, I hate the man who took him away."
Williams attempted suicide in April of this year by shoving a toilet paper roll down his throat and after that unsuccessful attempt he tried to starve himself to death. It is highly unusual for psychopaths to take their own lives which again leads us to believe he's an anomaly. He cried after sentencing saying he was terribly sorry for the acts he'd committed, he recognized verbally his apology wouldn't be acceptable.
I have mixed feelings about this man. His acts are horrendous and monstrous yet his confession tape surprisingly brings up feelings of empathy for him. It's like I am too easily able to separate his distress from his actions and I end up feeling for his distress. Yet, he did not have any empathy for any of his victims. I suppose it's my inability to understand lack of empathy that makes it difficult.
I do know that this mini obsession has literally given me at least one sleepless night. Knowing how easy it is to break into homes and knowing this man specifically targeted attractive women living alone makes me nervous. Just this past week I locked my bedroom door in addition to my entry doors, I've never done that. The act of locking of the bedroom door caused me to become hyper vigilant and I became convinced I heard footsteps in my home. My dogs began barking which is very unusual. I literally sat in my bed in an rigid position holding my phone, ready to dial 911 for at least an hour. I slept with the light on and dreamt terrible dreams. In the morning convinced my animals were dead I wielded a metal pant hanger over my head as I unlocked my bedroom door. My single status which I've lived comfortably with for years suddenly seemed dangerous.
I've attached pictures and video if I've happened to pique your interest.
Click here to watch a commercial free special edition of the Fifth Estate's view of the confession. The Confession - the fifth estate
"I’m horrible to live with. I don’t clean. My clothes end up wherever I take them off. I forget to flush the toilet. Friends will tell me, “Megan, you totally pinched a loaf in my toilet and didn’t flush."
"I’m horrible to live with. I don’t clean. My clothes end up wherever I take them off. I forget to flush the toilet. Friends will tell me, “Megan, you totally pinched a loaf in my toilet and didn’t flush."
