I'm in a better space than yesterday, which is great considering my emotional state was pretty low. I think it was the crash after a period of heightened anxiety. Even though the outcome was fantastic, and continues to be, my feelings had to go somewhere.
Frenchi was in town for 12 hours! Which sounds worse than it was. We talked and I feel good, and really that's what counts. I asked him if we will ever spend more time together and he assures me we will. I have a timeline in my head, which I haven't shared with him because it would sound too much like an ultimatum and that's simply not my style. He saw and heard my real disappointment and didn't run, it would have been a great time to say "it's just not working out.", and he didn't take it. He says I'm extremely nice and sweet and I think when he says it on some level doubts its veracity. We both need more time to see who we are in the long haul - will it happen is the question. I feel like I have choices and that's a good way to feel. I feel like life has slowed down to an acceptable pace and I'm going to enjoy every second today, you just never know what tomorrow brings.
