Woke up this morning with the song: "Caledonia" going through my head. (Caledonia was the Latin word the Ancient Romans gave to Scotland.)
Anyway, as I was getting ready, I was suddenly struck once more by the reality that my debt, even if it was discharged in bankruptcy, would most likely still carry with it a 7 or 10 year ruination of my credit due to the "stigma" that bankruptcy carries.
I guess I am in denial about that, and still think that God will come out of the Machine and do a miracle. Or that I will become an Entra-Penantra and sell a billion elecronic ball scratchers or something, or win the lottery. Or something.
But some problems are just too far gone for surgery, and the only way to save the larger body is to sacrifice or hack the mangled limb (that limb being the current crop of hopeless debtors) clean off.
To rephrase: Even if the Student Lending system ever does get reformed, it won't help a certain class of people such as me who are too far gone.
And there I go with the Billy Budd Captain Vere theme again. As in, me Billy, and Captain Vere being a nebulous "Reformer" embodied in a single person or perhaps an entire legislature.
So I'm back to the notion that leaving the US is the only way to get away from it all, like some have advised on this blog.
The alternative is to stay here with permanent bad credit, and huge debt until I am 70, and then face an old age of poverty most likely, or being a burden on a family member (s).
And one last note: I mentioned reform of the student Lending System. But lately I am beginning to think that all of this could have been avoided if the Government had never become involved in Higher Ed. in the first place. I have heard that sentiment expressed in the past and so I didn't make it up. But the truthfulness of the concept seems clearer to me now.
Oh, I guess all those hundreds if not thousands of hours painting and listening to Conservative talk radio has had some influence, and so I ask: Was Government involvement in Higher Ed. a "Liberal" approach, that has now come full cycle?
A question for better political minds than mine to answer.
Anyway, to the song, and to thoughts of leaving, (and for me Scottish Lass Ann Coulter as well :) I have had it on this blog before, but here it is again:
