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To sum up my Law School Graduation Ceremony in one line:
"Out you go, Oh you dirty dishrag you!"
And here I am, 15 years later, with more than tripled Student Loan Debt, that relatively few people can understand.
Few people understand, and I am a Freak.
By this time next year, my Student Loan Debt will be solidly quadrupled from what it was in 1996 or 97. (True Story)
I am a Freak that is so Freaked out, and I sometimes feel wildly desperate, and as if I want to just escape. Somewhere. Anywhere. From this Country. From this World. Fly off to the Frontier.
Another Land. Another Life. Into the Hereafter. Deliverance.
God I feel like I am an indebted Criminal and an Enemy of the State.
I mean, my Ass is owned by the Dept. of Ed. which means I am owned by the US Federal Government, Lock, Stock and Barrel.
All of this blogging has been interesting and sometimes fun, but nothing has changed for me, and I am even worse off now.
More Debt. Ruined Credit. A shipwrecked life. A pariah. An outcast. Wanderer.
Oh Dear God! Oh Dear God!
I've been listening to this song @ around 5:00 called: "I Think It's Going To Rain Today.
What does it feel like to buy your own house?
What does it feel like to have kids? To have a family of your own?
To be solvent and out of Debt?
It must be Wonderful.
Kids, do not go to Law School unless you are well "Set Up" beforehand, for the career that comes after Law School. Please listen to me.
It is not too late to withdraw, and take the question of attending Law School up again next year, or in 2 years, or in 5 years.
Take it from an older person, Youth is on your side, and you can call the shots.
My youth is gone, and my youth was a very sad and stressed, Student Loan indebted youth, and that debt has merged into my now middle age, and will someday carry into my inevitable old age.
Huge Debt. Huge, Huge Debt.
Oh Dear God, sometimes I feel so lost, and I get these letters in the mail telling me how much money I owe.
I owe. I owe.
Three Hundred Thousand Dollars.
Oh Dear God!
If and when I flee the USA, how will I fare.
I am so uncertain and sometimes afraid of the concept of leaving, but what else can I do?
(The above Butterfly clip is for the New Jersey Guy that wants more Gore)
Better to die in Honor than to live with the deep shame of ever increasing Student Loan Debt. End of Story. End of Post.
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July 22. (Next Morning) I had better not end it just yet, and so:
Feeling better this morning.
I guess my moods swing, and that lettter with my new Loan balance has me all panicked and nutty since I got it in the mail last week.
I have this really stubborn sinus infection, and a constant headache behind my left eye.
I went to the Dr. 2 days ago and got some "Amox" (An Antibiotic) and Prednizone to help open up the sinus cavities and help them drain. So far it is working, but slowly.
I went to the Dr. 2 days ago and got some "Amox" (An Antibiotic) and Prednizone to help open up the sinus cavities and help them drain. So far it is working, but slowly.
I sometimes pray that the Prednizone will restore my taste and smell, just a little, for a little while, but that doesn't seem likely.
I wonder if my complete Anosmia (over a period of years) has affected me psychologically as well.
Anyway, and on a lighter and sillier note, here are a few pics of my...well..call it musings with objects.
The above pic is of a little device: a little weighted stand with a many jointed, and almost robotic seeming set of arms with clamps at the end, and useful for making plastic scale models, or for various arts and crafts projects. Here I show an example of one clamp holding a plastic "Sprue" or frame, and it makes it easier to paint the plastic parts, such as the upside down Spitfire pilot this way. After the pilot is all painted, he can be removed from the sprue. etc etc.
And so, somehow, I came up with the idea of placing this Blue claw Crab shell on top of the little stand with the many jointed arms and clamps etc.
Top View
Here is my little crab/robot guy, to whom I haven't yet given a name, holding a letter opener, and I somehow think the New Jersey guy outta like that.
Another one with the Letter Opener (Portugese Sword, if you will)
And last, but not least, here is my top bookshelf. (I have been trying to organize my place, and all in it lately). These are the same old books , among others, that I read over and over, and which that used to annoy my ex-wife. From time-to time, and to expand my intellectual horizons, my ex-wife would try to read me passages from Frank McCourt and other modern authors, after which I would reach for the Edgar Allan Poe volume you see in this pic, and read to her about how Hop Frog ground his ugly square teeth, and later chained the wicked King and his Ministers together, and set them all on fire, as the entire assembly in the Hall looked on in Horror.
My ex-wife wasn't amused, but I think OWS will know the story and have a laugh. :)
BTW, on the Far Left is the Complete Sherlock Holmes. On the Far right are a few volumes by Oscar Wilde: Fairy Tales, De Profundis, Short Fiction, Dorian Gray.
Uh, the yellow book with the torn cover is David Copperfield. And there is Tom Sawyer and Huckeberry Finn.
Anyway PK, I put this pic of my books here because I thought you might be amused, and laugh a little at stupid old me. One line or statement or sentiment from David Copperfield that has always stood out in my memory was from Aunt Betsy Trotwood, having to do with: "Suitability of mind and purpose." So things all happen for a reason I suppose ,and that is that.
BTW, on the Far Left is the Complete Sherlock Holmes. On the Far right are a few volumes by Oscar Wilde: Fairy Tales, De Profundis, Short Fiction, Dorian Gray.
Uh, the yellow book with the torn cover is David Copperfield. And there is Tom Sawyer and Huckeberry Finn.
Anyway PK, I put this pic of my books here because I thought you might be amused, and laugh a little at stupid old me. One line or statement or sentiment from David Copperfield that has always stood out in my memory was from Aunt Betsy Trotwood, having to do with: "Suitability of mind and purpose." So things all happen for a reason I suppose ,and that is that.
