Leaving my corner office.

I have one more day left to work in an office other than my own home.  It feels strange I have to admit.  I've really taken a big leap of faith.  I believe with all my heart I will be successful, everything I've done up to this time has led me to it.  I can't imagine the re-evaluation I will have to do of myself and my perceived competencies if this fails.  I'm convinced the market can bear my rates because I am a cheaper alternative to hiring a full time staffer.  I'm rationalizing here, can't you tell?  

No pay for a month or more is kind of daunting and for the first time in a long time I've contemplated my purchases before hand.  When I talked to my frenchman this evening I told him my plan to buy a vehicle was on hold because I couldn't risk the payments at this time.  He simply said "we'll work it out."  Wow.  I haven't had someone say that to me in ....forever.  I didn't have an iota of hint in my call, I'm so used to doing it on my own, it doesn't occur to me there's any other way.  My love for him swelled three times larger when he said it.

I am close to cold calling agencies, but being rather perfectionistic I want all my ducks in a row before I call them rather than risk being unprepared.  I feel very grateful to be where I am.