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| The credits for this masterpiece go to my 3rd child, who always seems to capture me at my best. |
Yeah......not my prettiest expression.
But regardless, three separate incidents that made me curl in a ball and cry a little bit; console myself with a little bit of (what else?) cheese and chocolate; and made me want to lower myself to the level others seem to behave at, so that I could be as cruel, thoughtless, intolerant, and mean-spirited as some of the people around me.
However....
What good would that do? What will I prove by giving in to provocation and biased rants? Nothing. Because when I do that, I am no better than the people who made me make THAT face. And that face says it all...
"Say what?", "Excuse me?", "Wait, wha...?", "WTH?", and "Oh no they di-INT."
I want to be a good person. The exact opposite of what I'm accused of being. I'm not there yet, but it's a work in progress. The good news is, I'm actively working on being a better wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, writer, individual. Every day I wake up with the goal of being a better human being than I was the day before.
Shouldn't everyone work on that?
I think so. But I can't force others to work on it. I can only hope they'll try to be better on their own. Heaven knows someone can't be forced to be at their best all the time. Personal progress is just that: Personal. But here is what I CAN say about the peeps trying to knock me down and make me hurt...
I can only hope to inspire you to be a happier, more considerate, more tolerant, more functional, more sympathetic human being. But I cannot judge you for not being so. Because judging is the Big Guy's job, not mine. And fortunately for me, not your job, either. Maybe we can find a common bond someday. That would make me happy.
In the meantime I vow the following things: (Some of these things won't make sense to the average reader, but to some, they will make perfect sense.)
1.) I vow to be the best, most protective and proactive mother I am capable of being.
2.) I vow to treat people how I would expect to be treated.
3.) I vow to support whatever leader this country has, whether it be D or R or some backwoods elk hunter from Wisconsin.
4.) I vow to put my husband and children before all others.
5.) I vow to always treat you better than you have treated me.
6.) I vow to continually forgive, though it is important to bear in mind that I never forget.
I hope that I can get back to this wife/mother/author now:
Because I hate feeling unhappy. It sucks.
Brooke Moss.
